You know i've been so busy with christmas stuff that I had totally forgotten I even had a blog... so life is nuts... I recently figured out i'm lactose intolerant.... yeah that's a good one... do you know how much more complicated it is to cook when you can't eat milk or cheese? Luckily butter is pretty safe so I can still bake but i'm deff not slathering down my bagel... I've mostly discovered that milk is bad so is cheese and everything else kinda falls in between... gotta love that discovery period though... I basically eat things and see if they make me wanna puke.... yay.... it's not so bad though... except I cannot eat ice cream or chocolate... well chocolate I can handle in small doses if there is tea involved... but I don't usually try it unless i'm really desperate... the good news is I can drink coffee again and since my creamer is lactose free I can wake up every morning to a perfect cup of joe with that nice winter peppermint mocha flavor :).... joel has been quite the trooper... he is rolling with the punches as best he can while I try to adjust to all this... but it is getting better and i'm excited for that...

We are still waiting forour date to training in January... apparently no one bothered to tell Joel we were only on the waiting list for this thing and not actually in it until about a month ago... yeah that's an interesting story but what is really interesting is that Joel finally told me what I thought I had been asking for months... Yes we can go active duty at the end of training but he has to be top of his class... apparently only the top couple people get to go active duty... barring that we could come home and get a job with the newport news police... oh but here's the kicker... they won't make him a job offer till he gets back... lol so my life is a swirling maze of mystery at the moment... but The Lord will provide and we will come through in the end so i'm really not that worried... I'm mostly laughing at this point... cause you know everytime we seem to kinda get comfortable withlife The Lord hands us a new curveball and says "Here this is so you will remember that I am in control and that I will take car of you. Remember that and you will be fine."

You know two weeks ago in church we had some people get up and talk about how much they had sacrificed in the last few months and how they had become so dependent on The Lord and how this transformation had lead them to give up tv and all these other things... and I really just... it upset me a little because I felt like it wasn't totally about the Lord... it was a grab for attention it was a "Oh look how much we have given up because the Lord wants us too"... now granted I have my own issues with the people in that church... mostly because... and I can't believe i'm going to say this but .... they are too toucy feely... don't get me wrong the teaching is solid but the people just really irk me sometimes... we had some woman quote "the message" in the middle of the service the other day and that just really bugged me... and so I sit here trying not to have a bad attitude about the people of this church because I know i'm spoiled and I need to learn to compromise but is it really a compromise worth having if it takes me to a place where fellowship is not all about God? oh well something to ponder over